2023 Zoyer Zyndel Poetry Prize
Indelible​
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My heart has
wound down slow these days,
like an old wristwatch,
skips metaphorical measures
when I think of that night,
how I kissed your spittle-flecked lips
between compressions –
come back to me
1 - 2 - 3
come back to me
1 - 2 - 3
– as ruby droplets dried on your cheek –
I
could
not
save
you.
Once you were breath bone cartilage.
You would think your ghost would be weightless,
but I am so heavy with you.
Weeks after,
I found myself guiltily peering
through your journal pages and sketches,
posthumous voyeur of your life's doodles,
the butterfly you drew
symbol of recovery
swirled and labyrinthine.
Page in hand I trudged to the tattoo parlor
barely managed a whisper:
"over my heart"
your blood into ink
onto bone
needles stinging like recriminations.
Now I imagine her wings batting, lifting off,
riding my night sighs to find you,
returning to me, bearing your wordless benedictions
worn as an amulet, against another day
without you.
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(Previously published in Oct 2019 Issue of Anti-Heroin Chic.)
R.B. Simon
R.B. Simon (she/her) is a queer, black, disabled writer whose work has found homes in pacificREVIEW, The Coop, Strange Horizons, Literary Mama, CALYX, Obsidian, and West Trestle Review. Her work has been a finalist for numerous prizes, and she won Second Place in the 2023 Plentitudes Prize in Poetry. Her first full-length collection, Not Just the Fire, was released in March 2023 from Cornerstone Press. In her free time, she enjoys creating visual art, napping, and coffee-flavored caffeine. She is currently living in Madison, WI with her spouse and newborn daughter. Learn more at www.rb-simon.com.